Patience

Patience.


That one thing that in 45 years, I have never had. 


I have never found patience.


I am impulsive by nature and I enjoy it. 


Other people, not so much. My now ex husband hated it about me. 
I have been told by many that I need to find it. 


Where do I go to find patience?

I have gone into the woods.
I have traveled back and forth across the country. 
I have meditated deep into my soul. 
I found stillness. I found quiet. I found EnLIGHTEnment. 


No Patience.


Some say I have found patients. I know I am a healer.
I seek to be a stronger healer. 
Patients have found me. 


Still, no patience. 


Especially not with patients. 

THAT is something I feel I would like to learn:
Patience with patients. Patience with my self. 


But where, how, when, can I learn to have patience with finding patience to have patience with myself and my patients, NOW!?!?!?!

Grrrr.... patience.